tomorrow i go on holiday to, you guessed it, Puerto Rico.
that meeans bikini.
i'm not sure if i can deal with this right now.
I just had a massive binge and i hate myself. i'm disgusted with what i've just put into my body but i'm too scared to purge as last time i did i drew up blood.
please, someone help me... i don't know what i can do. i can't forget about food, it's all-consuming and i find that sometimes i can focus on nothing else.
i think tomorrow i will start over completely, i'm going to try my hardest to just stay away from food all together.
i'm going to take everyday one day at a time.
only water from now on.
it's all or nothing.
